More great songs tell our love story so perfectly. "You Make Me So Very Happy" - Blood, Sweat and Tears, "Your The Inspiration" - Chicago, "If Not For You" - Bob Dylan, "Wonderful Tonight" - Eric Clapton, "Woman' - John Lennon, "How Sweet it is to be Loved by You" - Marvin Gaye, "You Are The Sunshine of My Life" - Stevie Wonder, and our wedding dance song, "Have I Told You Lately" by Van Morrison. What a dream come true for me to have a love in my life like this; to be MARRIED to a man who gives his romantic creative nature free reign to put together a compilation of love songs for me! Wow, thank you GOD! So much to be grateful for. It helps to realize this. Gratitude balances grief. Odd, but that is how life is... so very "Both/And."
North Blog followers and friends have been asking about the latest scan results. As it is with every time we've gone in to hear about what these tests tell us, we hope for the best and try to breathe when what we hear frightens us. Such was the case this last time. The trio chemo mix that was a higher dose and really knocked him flat for nearly three weeks... it didn't "work." The cancer has grown in all the areas we knew it was – lymph nodes, lung, liver and bone, and spread some on his back into his femur. The latter location is causing him great pain of late. Its been hard. And now we are in the second frustrating week of waiting to hear if the insurance will cover the experimental drugs his Dr. is suggesting.
So we've been focused on making changes in one area we have some control over; an area I happen to have professional experience in! ORGANIZING! I see it consistantly with clients; the joyous freedom and sense of empowerment that gaining control over ones environment can make. North dreamed of a sacred space to be creative in and I wanted to help make that happen. So we dove headfirst into his office with its numerous boxes of paper and files. He did so great! He purged and I labled and we just couldn't stop! We even rearranged his furniture (with Craig's help - LOVE YOU Craigers!) Now he LOVES going in there and has been gushing gratitude, adnirationa nd loads of love on me for days! Yeah! So once my office space readjusts to my new/used beautiful desk, we are launching our E-Bay store with order and clarity and anticipation for great success!
Of course we still hold on to hope that great success and more miracles are in store for us along the lines of North's physical body. Please join us in praying for ease of pain , insurance apporoval and strong intuition about alternative healing paths to explore. And amid all of that, we hold our hearts open for so many others whom we have met and heard of who are in similar situations of uncertainty and fear. May we ALL keep our hearts open to the blessings and miracles already present in our lives - and most especially for the miracle of our loving realtionships; our mates and friends and families.
Happy Valentines Day.
WITH LOVE,
Stef McKinnon
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Hi Stef & North,
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Hi Stef and North~
How beautiful and heartfelt your message and for keeping us all informed. Another idea came to mind through Debbie Ford's 'work' in releasing anger is to take a plastic bat and hit a stack of pillows. Or...Jenny mentioned blasting music and scream!!! Just allow yourself to 'let go and release.' North and Stef~please know I am continually holding you both in your highest and sending much love and support. I am ALWAYS here for both of you at anytime. God is forever present and know this deep within your souls. Love you both tons and tons. Jeannine XO
Your blog update was beautiful and touching and strong...Really admire how you are keeping the high vibration and also when you need to be human...
Lovin you thru them both and can be there for ya...
Lunch?
oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Leslie
Happy Valentines day to you and your wonderful husband, North. Your update of your lives is more than beautifully written as per usual. I hope you received my message where you type a message after you blog. You both mean so much to me. and to read of your love and the determination to hold on together and pursue all the positive affirmations in your lives, makes my heart quiver and cry out to God to make this a fine and long lasting journey together. I miss you both and love you every moment, My love is for you for always, Momma
Dearest Stef,
I read each email/blog that you send. I want you both to know that I am sending love each and every day. You two are so incredibly brave. Your amazing story is profound. Your courage publishable...which is what I am imagining you and North doing at some point. Best seller material for sure. We ARE creating a miracle here, it is so evident in each and every email/blog.
So my dear Ones my heart is with you.
with my arms around you each step of the way,
petra
Duff,
As we realized in the mountains during the Goddess Retreat, all this incredible, deep, pure love wouldn't be so if it weren't for the cancer. I strongly encourage you to blog that peom you wrote for all the rest of us to see how you cope so well. I am embued with peace just thinking of it!
i love you more than these typed words could ever express. sisKris
Dear North and Stef - have just returned from being away over 2 weeks and have just read the updated blog from Valentine's Day. I am deeply sorrowful that you are in pain and under siege on so many fronts. This cancer is a formidable adversary. I am awed,, no other word for it, by the grace with which you are both able to persevere. North, I think a lesser man--physically & spiritually--might not have made it through all that you have endured. Stef, your amazing spirit in supporting North sets a powerful example of continuing on despite daunting circumstances. I was really struck by the project of clearing out to organize a sanctuary/creative space. Utilizing personal skills, doing something positive, with forward motion, makes perfect sense. You both must be very intuitive to constantly come up with a path forward.
I feel connected with you both, and am praying for continued grace to surround you. With heartfelt thoughts and prayers for your well-being. Much, much love, Melinda
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Hi Norman,
Check out what a beautiful place this is and some sermons from Donald of the Morrison Clan.
Cliff
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