Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Surgery Date and a few thoughts from Stef

Wow. What a truly amazing and incredible journey we have embarked upon. Throughout the intensity of emotions and shock, doctor appointments and phone calls, North and I find ourselves in entirely new territory. It is unfamiliar - filled with all sorts of things to scare the wits out of us, but honestly, even more things to amaze and touch us, such as the outpouring of love, caring and support coming from literally every direction.
Cancer. A word so loaded with emotional reaction that many, including myself until recently, do all they can to avoid even saying it. But cancer is not the most powerful force in this situation. Yes, hearing the word and that "IT" was found in my sweethearts body, along with all the information about how it will be dealt with medically, nearly laid me flat. More than once. BUT.... I/we have found the strength to remain standing and face this.
ANd so much of that strength has come from a community made up of phenomenal family and friends, even miraculous strangers. Through the web of people we both are blessed to know over the years, and the gif tof the Internet, literally thousands of people, reaching around the world, have responded to requests for prayers and support.
Now THAT, added together with things like courage, conviction, connection, LOVE, faith, wonder, synchronicity and surrender (to a higher power - God, the Angels, the Universe); I feel that not only is North experiencing miraculous healing, but all who know of him and us are healing too. I say we just let this experience and the power of love and prayer serve to transform ALL of us. Let his diagnosis and healing process serve to awaken all of us to an awareness of something larger and more beautiful than the mundane things we allow to cloud our life experience. Let us all be more available to witness the miracles of synchronicity and connectedness that go on around us every day. THAT is how we help one another, and how we help ourselves.
I am glad I felt inspired to write tonight. This blog is a bit longer than I anticipated but so be it - my heart needs to get it out!
But now down to some logisitcs - such as surgery date. North goes in to UCI medical center on Thursday morning, March 23rd at 6 am. The surgery begins at 8 and, depending on a few variables (like how much the tumor has shrunk because of all the contiual prayers and visualizations - *hint, hint*), the surgery could take up to 12 hours. He will spend a few days in ICU, several more in a regular room and then comes home after about 10 days or so.
To all of you who have asked how you can help, there will be all sorts of new opportunities coming up to accept your offers in the coming weeks. Please keep visiting this site and check your e-mails as I'll probably send out quick updates or urgent requests if needed.
And for those who have asked, and anyone else inspired to help in any way, (food, errands, flowers, cards, and any financial donations, etc.) we continue to be humbly grateful and greatly moved by your generosity. (What a lesson in the power of receiving and accepting support!) Our home address is
North McKinnon and Steph Swink
257 Avenida Madrid, Unit A
San Clemente, CA 96272
THANK YOU A THOUSAND TIMES TO ALL OF YOU!!! And many hugs of gratitude to Joel for his invaluable help today with a new phone and my quircky computer. And to the rest of the core gang of angels so actively involved in setting things up to help us through this challenging time and the months ahead. You know who you are and we love you SOOOO much!
Namaste' and much love,
Stef

2 Comments:

At 8:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow! Stef, you are such poet, and amazing person! I know you and North are going through so much, and I want you to know Rose and I are praying for you! I'll call Jenny to volunteer...hmmm.the fundraiser..Rose and her Irish band...fiddles and you and North all dressed like in your photo!!!
Love you! Susie and Rose Rodgers

 
At 4:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Loved Ones! I am pasting a message/e-mail from my friend Gina. Thank you girlfriend!
These are the perfect words for me and all people in the world experiencing "disaster" in any form - loss, pain, fear, illness, or any scary and uncertain thing. Blessings from here to the people and all creatures of Kauai and all around the world.

Hi Stef,I tried to post a message. However, I was not able to....Here are some encouraging words for you and North. Sending you lot's of love and light! Gina

Saturday, March 11, 2006 The real magic
When disaster strikes, there are no magic words that will make everything all right. For if there were, life would necessarily have to be unbearably empty and shallow in order to accommodate them. What there is, is the opportunity and the obligation to love as you never have before. What there is, is the stimulus to take life to a higher level. In your moments of most profound challenge, you are left with only what truly matters. And that is a powerful place to be. When you are forced to experience life at its worst, it compels you to be your best. You must call upon a level of strength you never before knew was there. And then, you begin to work through it. As you choose to move forward, life takes on greater, more profound meaning. Choose to love, and choose to live. That is what you can do, and that is where the real magic will happen.
-- Ralph Marston

 

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